From Dreams to Reality: My Musical Journey from Rock Star Aspirations to Rabbinical Songwriting

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Like many kids, I once dreamed of becoming a rock star. Armed with a hairbrush and later a Mr. Microphone, I'd spend countless hours in front of our big stereo, belting out radio tunes and imagining my living room as my own personal stage. However, as I grew older, the thought of singing in front of others scared me.

Looking back, I realize that this change stemmed from personal trauma and abuse that began around the age of 10, coupled with a growing belief that my singing wasn't good enough. This period marked a significant shift in my self-perception and confidence.

My journey took a turn when I joined the military, where I developed leadership skills and a strong work ethic. Post-military life led me to start a personal training business, and eventually, I found my way to playing the guitar. But, even then, singing confidently in front of others remained a challenge,  remembered by many who knew me during those times.

It wasn't until rabbinical school that I found a new kind of courage. Singing and songwriting became more than just a dream; it became my lifeline. It helped me learn Hebrew and provided a unique way to express complex emotions and thoughts. My compositions, ranging from Jewish-themed pieces to universal reflections, became part of my voice.

In 2015, I embarked on a pivotal journey by stepping onto the stage at open mic events. What was once a daunting prospect transformed into a compelling need, a calling that I couldn't ignore. Music evolved into more than just a creative outlet; it became a bridge connecting my inner world with the outer and a profound spiritual practice that guided my growth and expression.

The COVID-19 pandemic in 2020 marked another milestone. I began performing guitar sessions on social media, and as the world started to reopen, I seized any opportunity to perform live, from bars to farmers' markets. I even started sharing my home studio recordings on streaming platforms.

Recently, at Yonder Bar, my favorite venue for live music, I achieved a level of ease and comfort on stage that was new to me. I'm sharing this video not because it showcases my top musical performance but because it represents a significant moment: the most comfortable, relaxed, and natural I've ever felt while performing. This moment stands as a testament to the idea that with dedication and hard work, our goals are well within reach.

Reflecting on this journey, I realize that I've not only fulfilled some of my childhood dreams in the most unexpected ways, but I've also evolved into a kind of rock star in the rabbinical world. This isn't just about my singing or musical talents; today, I stand as a beacon, not merely as a musician, but as a rabbi who rocks in the truest sense — serving as a spiritual guide to both Jews and non-Jews alike.

This evolution in my identity is not just about personal achievement; it is a testament to the power of embracing change and redefining success on my own terms. My journey from a child who dreams to a rabbinical figure of note symbolizes a harmony between youthful dreams and mature realizations between the universal language of music and the profound depths of spiritual teachings.

As I strum my guitar and lend my voice in countless ways, each chord, each note, echoes the journey of transformation. I stand not merely as a rabbi but as a living symbol of how dreams can morph and materialize in the most unexpected ways. My music, once a private refuge, is now shared and resonates with many, bridging the gap between the sacred and the ordinary and illustrating that sometimes, the path to becoming a rock star leads through the most sacred of halls.

My journey echoes the belief that if you truly desire something, the universe conspires to help you achieve it. Surrounded by fellow musicians and songwriters, attending Jewish songwriting retreats, and participating in music conferences have all been part of this journey. A guiding quote for me has been from Rabbi Nachman of Breslov: "The whole world is a very narrow bridge, and the most important thing is not to be afraid.” This philosophy, which even inspired one of my songs, speaks to facing challenges head-on and not letting fear dictate our paths.

Today, I am working on my first professionally produced album and have become locally known as a songwriter, musician, and guitar enthusiast. My recent performance at Yonder Bar, my favorite music venue, was not just a musical milestone but a personal one, showcasing my comfort and growth on stage. This journey, from a living room singer to a rabbi using music to inspire and connect, is a story I share to encourage others to chase their dreams, find their voice, and never let fear stand in their way.

Are you on a journey of self-discovery or transformation? I encourage you to share your story, pursue your passions, and embrace the unexpected turns. Let’s inspire each other.